I'm ready for this cloud to lift, and the sun to shine through. It's a great day, church, a nap, Marc's watched football all afternoon. We've had special snacks/food for super bowl etc. Yet I'm sitting here holding off tears. I don't understand it. I just feel like it's an effort to stay engaged and not retreat. My heart wants to disconnect. To where I don't know. I just feel bad. Everything feels overwhelming again.
I feel guilty for feeling this way and not being able to just pull myself up out of it.
I'm saying these verses in my mind over and over.
Zeph. 3:17. The Lord your God is with you. He is mighty to save. He takes great delight in you and quiets you with His love. He rejoices over you with singing.
For I know the plans I have for you says the Lord. Plans of peace and not of evil. Plans to give you a future and a HOPE.
I know these verses to be true, God, Truth Himself spoke them in His Word and speaks them in our hearts every day..
Thank you Jesus that Your love and grace is not performance based. Keep helping me believe that. Help me to rest in your quiet love and receive Your beautiful grace.